Monday, November 25, 2013

thankful


I totally dropped the ball on my "What am I Thankful For" each day thing this year so I thought I would just go make a list (yay lists! love lists!)

Even though I have WAY more than 30 things I am thankful for, I thought I would share:


1. My Lord and Savior Jesus Christ. I am nothing, have nothing, and can do nothing without His love and strength.

2. My husband. I love that man so dang much - it makes my heart hurt! I am so proud and so blessed of that man and I thank the Lord for him. Plus, he's kinda hot ;)

3. My nanny. She is my angel. She is my quiet voice of reassurance and support. She taught me about giving and being humble.

4. My mom. She adds sparkle to my life. She taught me to live life and buy the shoes. I wouldn't be the woman I am today without her.

5. My big sister. I don't know where I would be without her. We weren't always the best of friends growing up but she has become my go-to person for just about anything. She is my fashion inspiration (and police ;), voice of reason, and very best friend.

4. My step-dad. As much as I miss my dad, I thank God for putting Doug into my life. He makes my life brighter.

5. My brother-in-law. I always wanted a big brother and I am so thankful to finally have one! I love sharing random websites with him and our little "arguments."

6. My grandpa. I wish he was in better help but I am thankful for the 24 years I have gotten with him.

7. My mother-in-law. She loves me as her own and I absolutely adore her.

8. My bestie from the mid-westie. Meeting Lamphone was a stroke of fate and I an beyond thankful for the friendship she gives me.

9. My Lucy. I have never met someone that loves cheese as much as I do, can make me laugh till I cry, and loves my dogs like they are kids. This Ethel would be one sorry story without her Lucy.

10. My pups - Rocky and Maddux. They bring so much joy to our life and they make my heart burst with happiness.

11. My sisters-in-law. I am thankful for Melissa and Monique. I treasure our friendship more than they will ever know.

12. My father-in-law. Again, it's not always been easy, but I am so grateful that I can call Phil my friend. He makes the best cakes ;)

13. My siblings-in-laws. Now that Dalton and Morgan are older, we get along much better. They are such awesome young adults and it has been a pleasure (sometimes a little scary ;) to see them grow up!

14. My grandparent-in-laws. How lucky can one girl be to get more awesome grandparents? Yay for marriage! ;) hehe

15. My Growth Group girls. We all have such different personalities, but it works. The Lord knows what He is doing ;)

16. My Sunday School class and Church. It was super stressful for me when we were looking for a church but I have never felt more at home than when I am at North Trenholm.

17. Ken & Missey - our fearless SS leaders. They are an amazing example of a Christian couple and are awesome parents. I hope I can be cool like them one day ;)

18. My friends. New and old.

19. Sylvester Stallone. Yes. You read that correctly. He may not be the worlds greatest actor but I love him and he makes me happy ;)

20. My iPhone. I hate to admit it but I am stupidly thankful for a piece of technology but it is what it is.

21. Our health. I have my issues but overall I'm pretty good. I'm thankful that the Main Squeeze has overcome all obstacles and is succeeding.

22. My hair. Yes, I will admit that I am thankful for my curls. It literally takes me 5 minutes to do my hair. Holla!

23. My travels. I have gotten to see some amazing things and I am thankful that the Main Squeeze wants to travel the world with me.

24. Fleece PJs. Even though I live in South Carolina and it doesn't get ridiculously cold, the Main Squeeze likes to keep the AC down. I love fuzzy PJs and slippers.

25. Cooking. I basically taught myself to cook in 2010 and I am thankful that I enjoy cooking now! And I am thankful that the Main Squeeze put up with some nasty dishes while I was learning.

26. Chapstick. Again, I am stupidly thankful for this! I constantly apply it and hoard tubs all over the house, car, and purse.

27. My job. I get to do what I love and I am thankful that the Main Squeeze supports me.

28. My clients. I love them all!

29. Cookie dough and sprinkles. Don't judge me!

30. My life. I have been so unbelievably blessed and I am thankful for it all.

Monday, September 30, 2013

60 years of memories

Last year, my sister saw a Pinterest post. For their father's 60th birthday, the kids reached out to his friends, family, and co-workers for letters. Ever since then, Claire had it put in her mind that she would do this for our  moms 60th.

Well after a lot of nagging (hopefully people weren't too irritated ;), we managed to get those 60 letters and my mom was quite shocked.

I don't think she realizes how much of an impact she has made on this Earth and I hope the letters serve as a constant reminder of just how amazing she is. Here are some photos of her opening them!

Not sure what to think.... 
We all laughed so hard! It was great. And you can totally see that my mom and I have the same smile and laugh ;) 
Claire and I both wrote about love for pulling weeds. 
60 letters for an amazing 60 year old
We have all gotten married, but we will always been the Tinsley Girls. I love you mom!


Friday, September 6, 2013

why i write

This morning I woke up and started to think about writing.

More specifically, why I love to write…

I am very talkative so you would think I would run out of things to say, but that will never happen! ;)

I was given a journal by a family friend when my dad passed and it’s sort of been my coping mechanism since.

Bad day? Write
Good day? Write
Something funny? Something sad? Something dreamy? WRITE.

I don’t write for attention or for praise. I don’t write for anyone other than myself. There is something so cathartic about putting pen to paper (or in this case, fingers to keys ;) and letting everything pour out.

Yes, I am very talkative, but not a lot of people have seen me in the raw. Ya know – emotional, scared, vulnerable... I find a way to hide that side of me behind a velvet curtain (couldn’t resist the Wizard of Oz reference ;) and find it hard to truly let people see that side of me. For a long time I thought tears meant weakness and I could never let people think I was weak.

I also struggle to tell people how much I love/appreciate/care for them, and I find it easier to express when I write. Whether is be on my blog, their Facebook wall, or a birthday card, writing my emotions makes much more sense and is much easier to do. 

So I write.


I am in my purest form when I write. I may not be the best or most eloquent writer but I write.

(and since I love pretty things, especially quotes, enjoy these :)




Thursday, September 5, 2013

Wednesday, September 4, 2013

suddenly

Another emotional blog coming your way.

I found out yesterday morning that my childhood best friend's mother was killed in a motorcycle accident.


Some idiot got behind the wheel drunk and killed two people.


I was in shock. My friend (to maintain some privacy for those who aren't my FB friends - I will call L) and I were best friends for 15 years. I'm 23 --- so that is a long time. We weren't just friends, we were sisters. Her family was my family.


When I would go out with them, they always treated me as another daughter, not a friend (if L got $5 to spend at Wal-Mart, her dad gave me $5. They took me out to dinner and celebrated special events with us)


I was always welcome in their home.

The day I found out about my dad's death, she was the first friend to show up at my house. I remember going home with her and her father that night so my mom could have some time to herself. I remember walking into their house and being greeted with hugs from her sister and her mother. She was there for me unlike anyone after my dad died.


She came to my wedding and I didn't have time to speak to her before she needed to leave but just seeing her made my heart so happy. 


L and I grew up and grew apart but she will forever be family to me. I wouldn't be who I am today if it wasn't for her and her family.


My heart breaks for her and her sister.


I know what it's like to loose a parent suddenly and it sucks. It beyond sucks, but I could never put into words the pain you feel. 


It makes  you realize how short life is and how little control we have. With my step-dad being in the hospital and the sudden loss of such a wonderful woman, I have taken the time to make sure I say "I love you" more.


L - I love you. I know we took different paths in the last 8 years but I will always love you and will always be so grateful for the love, support, and friendship you gave me. I can't remember a time in my childhood when you aren't there. From the fort in the park, to crashing the dirt bike into a tree. From late night giggle fits and late night fights. To boys, fashion, tragedy, and summer nights - we spent our childhood together. I love you so much and you are in my prayers. 






"For I consider that the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us."
Romans 8:18  


“I have told you all this so that you may have peace in me. Here on earth you will have many trials and sorrows. But take heart, because I have overcome the world.”  
John 16:33

"For God is not the author of confusion but of peace..."
1 Cor. 14:33


Monday, September 2, 2013

tired.

I have always considered myself an open book. I have a tendency of telling people way too much when I first meet them, then I silently panic and shut down. I can talk to anyone about anything. I love to talk - I get that from my mom. 

Anyway, I try to stay away from getting TOO personal on my blog, especially when it is about someone else but I feel like I need to write. So I am.

My step-dad, Doug, had a stroke last week.

I'm not going to lie -- it hasn't sunk in really. I met my mom and Doug at the ER on Thursday when he was initially seen. The doctor was certain it wasn't his heart and it was a severe case of vertigo.

Friday, I spoke to Doug and he sounded good. Back to normal. 


Saturday, I spoke to him again and he sounded ok. I told him we would be by to see him later that day. When we pulled up I saw the ambulance and Vincent could barely stop the car before I was running across the yard. Doug looked terrible. He was completely grey, moaning, and sweating very badly. 

Seeing someone you turn to for strength, comfort, and humor be so helpless and in so much pain.... It knocks the wind out of you. 

It was the first time I saw my mom worried. Which scared me. 

My mom is the strongest person I know. We are a lot alike in that we tend to be very level headed and calm in horrible situations. To see her worry and tear up scared me. 

At the ER, we were all cutting jokes and telling funny stories to pass time while Doug was getting an MRI. It's how we cope. 

The whole night, we made the best of it. Vincent and I went and got Doug some red popsicles because he had been bugging the nurses all night. We watched the Braves beat the Marlins in extra innings. If you were an outsider looking in, it was a very.... jovial scene.

Tonight it hit me. 

I almost lost another dad. 

If you don't know, in 2000 my dad passed away of a heart attack suddenly at the age of 46. I was ten. My mom married Doug in 2009, and he has been the father figure I have been praying for since I lost my dad. 

I sit here and I keep praying over and over -- God, please protect him. Please don't do this to us again. We just got him. Please don't take him away. 

I can't lose Doug. 

Six years ago, I would have never guessed this man would become such a pivotal part of our lives. Six years ago, I wasn't ready for someone like him. Six years ago, God put this man in my mother's life for a reason. 

I can't lose him.

He has become a father to not only my sister and me, but to my husband as well.  He has become an important member of our entire family. He has changed my life in ways I cannot describe. 

He is my sounding board. 
He is my personal comedian.
He is my protector and friend. 
He is my dad.

I truly believe that it was intended for me to have two fathers. (for those who know me, this is big. I don't throw "family titles" around lightly). He will never replace my father and he has never tried too. He respects my dad but loves us as his own. 

I like to consider myself a strong person. When Vincent was in his accident, I broke down for about 10 minutes, then I pulled it together and pushed forward. I try to be very practical, realistic, and, when possible, optimistic. 

Tonight, I am tired. 

I am tired of being strong.
I am tired of being practical.
I am tired of being realistic.
I am tired.

With all of my being, I believe Doug will be ok. Every time I pray, I feel peace. But tonight, I am a scared little girl, who wants her step-dad to come hug her and tell her it will be ok.

Until then, I will be strong. I will have faith. I will trust in God's timing. And I will keep praying. I know God did not put Doug in my life for us to only have him for 6 years. 



Trust in the LORD with all your heart, And do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He will make your paths straight.
Proverbs 3:5-6


"Those who hope in the Lord
    will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
    they will run and not grow weary,
    they will walk and not be faint."
Isaiah 40:31

Friday, August 23, 2013

fun finds friday - disney inspiration







It's Friday y'all and I am about to do my happy dance!!!! FFF is back so enjoy! ;) 

I have decided to do a Disney themed FFF and I am super excited. 

(and might I add, my birthday is November 10th and Christmas isn't too far away... so yea ;)


Mulan T-Shirt
Ok - this is fab-u-lous. Mulan is one of my all time favorite Disney movies and this is super cute!


buy here



Peter Pan Quote Art
I love love love Peter Pan. I just do and these pretty little things are so perfect. 



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Beauty and the Beast Inspired Rose Bookmark
Books. Rose. Classy. Enough said.
buy here



The Hunchback of Notre Dame
Now, the book is NOT like the movie but I love this beauty.
buy here



Brave Inspired Bracelets
My newest love. Curly, redheaded heroine - I'm always a fan.
buy here



Hercules Inspired "Goddess" Headband
Who doesn't love the beautiful and sassy goddesses in Hercules! This gold (and fabulous) headband is stunning. 
buy here



The Emperor's New Groove
Llama nail art. I mean, really... do I need to say more!!!
buy here




Remember the Titans
I love a cute, graphic tank
buy here



Aladdin Genie Lamp
Ok, so this maybe pretty useless but I mean it's pretty rad ;)

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Homeward Bound - Doorbell Cover
This is my sister-in-laws favorite movie, so I had to add this. Plus, it's super cute.
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Cool Runnings Quote
For my sister and because this movie in amazing.
buy here

Thursday, August 15, 2013

rock that lip color ;)

When I was little, lip stick meant being grown-up. My mom wore lip stick all of time and had a rather large collection.

In high school, there was the girl, who became my best friend, and who wore (and rocked!) bright red lip stick. I use to think, "wow. She is SO confident! I wish I could wear something that bold!" 

Lip stick has always had an interesting allure to me. But I feel like millennials don't appreciate, like, or wear lip stick.

I'm 23. I have dark brown eyes and hair. I have porcelain skin and yellow undertones. I am 23 and afraid of lip stick!

What shade? Gloss or stain? Shimmer or matte?! AHHHHH! 

I think adding a little color is nice and a great brightener. Obviously, you don't want to age yourself by going too dark or look to young with shiny glosses - but how do you find the middle ground without wanting to give up or spending too much! Well, I'm no expert but below I will share with you some of of my favorites. :)



Burt's Bees Rhubarb Lip Shimmer
I love Burt's Bees Beeswax Lip Balm, so I decided to try the lip shimmer. I actually tried a few shades before I realized that the Rhubarb was the best fit for me. They aren't super expensive and they keep your lips nice and moisturized  It doesn't taste funny and isn't too "bold" for newbies.



POP Beauty Pouty Pop Crayon - Coral Crush 
I actually got one in my ipsy bag last month and loved it! They accidentally sent me two bags, so I gave one to my mother-in-law. About a week later, she texted me and told me she LOVED it! It doesn't have the best reviews, BUT I like it. It's light weight with a decent coverage. It moisturizes well. The color doesn't last very long but my lips get dry fast and I apply chap stick at least 4 times an hour so I'm ok with the crayon. 




Stila Lip Glaze - all of them!
They are light weight and not super sticky. I love the pop of color and they are reasonably priced too! You can get ones with some shimmer or ones that are more matte. I currently have Blackbherry in my purse and it's perfect for the upcoming fall. 




Again, not everyone likes the same thing or can find the right color for them. I just wanted to share with you some of my current obsessions!

What are yours?!





Tuesday, August 6, 2013

happy birthday to my main man ;)

As like any other special events in my life, I am writing a blog post!

The main squeeze turns 24 today so I am going to share 24 things I love about him :) 

Luckily we just had photos done in Hawaii with Ashley Goodwin Photography and she took some of just him - so enjoy his sexy-ness ;)

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1. He always smells nice.

2. He rarely gets mad at me. Which is SUPER nice when I mess up ;)

3. He adores, spoils, and plays with our pups - he will be a great dad one day.

4. He has ambition

5. If he likes or is interested in something, he educates himself on the topic

6. He is a hard worker. He started his degree while in the Marines and is finishing it up now. And except for maybe one semester, he has always had a job while in school. He provides for us.

7. He is musically inclined. He just picked up the ukulele and is pretty good!!

8. He likes to dress nice




9. He has the best, sexiest, and prettiest smile around

10. His eyes are AH-mazing as well. Reference below:


11. We agree on most "moral" issues

12. We have the same goals and ideals for the future

13. He likes challenges and picks things up pretty fast (like driving on the opposite side of the road)

14. He puts up with my eccentric taste, thoughts, and personality

15. He is a great listener

16. He is adventurous - rock climbing, zip lining, zorbing, snorkeling, hiking.... when we vacation we like to do some fun things!

17. He never misses a chance to tell me he loves me

18. He can handle me at my worst

19. He has good hygiene! And for a germaphobe like me - that's huge.

20. He has a TERRIBLE memory when it comes to some things, but by golly he can tell you just about anything about the MLB! 

21. He makes me laugh

22. He is smart




23. He appreciates nice things and is willing to do the hard work to get them. 

24. He is the man God made for me. Even though we got married young, have been through some crazy things, and have grown up, I truly believe he is the man I was/am meant to be with.






I love you Vincent! Happy Birthday!!! 




ML